I'm a Fan

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Pull quotes

• When he used to let me fuck him, he would be so deep inside me I could map the edges of my cervix.
• The narrator knows on some level the man she wants to be with is a superficial lout who uses women as objects.
• She continues to desire him so she can, among other reasons tied in with status, race and social inequality, spit her venom and express her rage.

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• The book starts with her telling us how she is stalking online the lifestyle influencer who has replaced her in the artist’s affections.
• He renders me dead or alive with the flare of his attention. He is like this with all of us. He is a void and there is no way to fill it.
• It’s clear that this young woman is choosing someone unavailable because it lets her off the hook of commitment.

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• The unnamed protagonist of “I'm a Fan” isn't really the protagonist of her own life as she spends much of her time following online (and borderline stalking) two individuals.
• It's compelling and challenging how Patel describes this modern conflict.
• The dedicated documentation of such a doomed love affair reminded me somewhat of Annie Ernaux’s “Simple Passion”.